! GREASED LIGHTNING

木曜日, 7月 24, 2008

italy was amazing. i really miss the place, i want to go back and traipse around san gimignano and buy the huge 2-euors-per-slice pizza. pictures will be up another time.

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my throat feels inflamed and im coughing. i feel sickly. i dont think i'll need to go for kickboxing later. great. missing PE was never a bad thing. today there's some japanese fair in rj. i smell crepe :D

being sick is sometimes good. it makes you really think about things that you don't usually think about. life and all its grey areas. how to prove that people were damn wrong about you all the time.

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pw is a dumb subject. it just teaches you how to crap your way through very well. i think we're rather good at that.

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i don't understand why some people cannot seem to thank others whenever they receive help. are they just uneducated or uncultured?

10:16 ai shii te ru! (:

金曜日, 7月 04, 2008

if only God would appear in front of my eyes and tell me what to do with my life. if only.

but i know i heard Him today. you know what He said? He told me, "stop lying to yourself".

stop lying to myself

that what i've done is enough
that i can do it
that i can continue complaining about this
that i think i am okay at chem just bcos i was in the past (in fact i am downright horrendous at it now that you might think im a sec 3 just beginning to learn bloody moles which are not going to have any relevance in my life whatsoever after i leave college)
that you cared, that you do care, or that you are going to care bcos you didn't, you don't, and you're not going to, i am SICK of you

dear God, i am a disturbed, troubled soul thrashing in a raging sea without even a plank to hold on to, but even if i am going to take this plunge to perhaps let myself sink even deeper, i pray that you will guide me through and let Your will be done! (my attempts at writing like an excellent lit student have failed)

also, i have been told that some of my jokes are getting old and stale so i am here to share a new joke that has been recommended to me.

" there was once a girl by the name of serene. one day she tripped and fell.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! "

-.-" i wonder how many people are laughing at that.

1:05 ai shii te ru! (:

水曜日, 7月 02, 2008

back to school again. i suppose not many would actually bother what my take on CT was but anyway.

my state of preparation for CT: HORRENDOUS

my papers: DEPRESSING, though i did not feel depressed or remotely any trace of sadness about them hohoho!

the weekend was much fun, i met up with cheryl lim and had pahd thai and ben&jerry's brownie with berry yogurt then we trawled around esplanade library looking for random things for 2 hours. whee. island creamery on sat was full of YO people.

breaks in school are much fun as well, yong tau fu wins hands down! been having lit week stuff going on with 4 people which is clearly much better than lessons mainly because i can be myself around them (:

im starting to challenge many things that i'd believed in, perhaps they were never real at all. many things in life are intangible and there's always the saying that goes something along the lines of living for others then your life would be meaningful. well i think it's good to live for others but at the same time, considering all things, perhaps it's best to live for yourself.

all the things you said don't mean much anymore.

at least i've learnt to be a little more decisive now.

tmrw's a long day.

im only about half as fit as my dad.

i'd forgotten that swimming nationals were next week.

_____ is a big sacrifice. i mean BIG.

i can't fathom why i dread seeing them so much.

thanks for the strawberry yogurt chocolate bar, karen! really nice.

7. but no one would notice anyway, except you.

0:01 ai shii te ru! (: